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I Can’t Remember a Time Before Mental Illness

I can’t remember a time before mental illness in my life, a time before the thoughts of my own death swam in and out between wondering what was on television and which crayon I wanted to pick next. I can’t remember a time before seeing “visions” that no-one else saw, a time before hating [...]

By | 2020-10-08T14:07:00+00:00 October 8th, 2020|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|0 Comments

Fighting a War in My Head

I was diagnosed in high school with depression and anxiety then later in life diagnosed with body dysmorphic disorder. Looking back on my childhood, I can see the ways I was struggling then and the unhealthy coping skills I learned. Being diagnosed helped in some ways because it gave me a concrete reason as [...]

By | 2020-08-26T15:46:02+00:00 August 26th, 2020|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|0 Comments

To Thrive Instead of Just Survive

Trigger Warning:  The following content contains light discussion of sexual violence. Sometimes I just stare at the wall.  Sometimes I just stare at the wall and find myself in the Land of Make Believe. I can run, play skip, and dance, and no one will look at me like I’m the C word (crazy). [...]

By | 2020-07-15T22:20:48+00:00 July 15th, 2020|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|1 Comment

Recovery is Possible

I haven’t always struggled with seasonal change, it wasn’t until the age of 35 in late autumn that I had my first struggle with seasonal change and I attributed much of this to my loss of work during winter months.  I was self-employed as a home remodeling contractor and my workload peaked during spring, summer and [...]

By | 2020-07-15T22:20:03+00:00 June 25th, 2020|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|2 Comments

A Man Who Chooses To Tackle the Battle

Men and Mental Health used to sound like an oxymoron. When I grew up it was “boys don’t cry,” or “suck it up,” or my favorite “stop acting like a little girl,” as if girls were the only ones who experienced different emotions. Now, I’ll agree that showing your emotions is a sign of weakness to predators [...]

By | 2020-06-17T20:30:05+00:00 June 17th, 2020|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|0 Comments

Whittling the Chip on my Shoulder

I often reflect back on my initial diagnosis, relapse and how far I’ve come beating a path to recovery. We all know the stigma associated with mental health. Being a man, particularly in Marine Corps during my initial diagnosis, carries a little extra weight. I’m the oldest son, biggest brother and head of the household. I grew up playing and [...]

By | 2020-06-10T15:13:38+00:00 June 10th, 2020|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|3 Comments

Your Differences Are Your Superpowers

By Nicholas Emeigh,  NAMI Bucks County Ending The Silence Presenter  My name is Nick and I was born and raised in Bucks County, PA and attended college in Boston. I was and am always afraid that my technically invisible mental health diagnoses will be visible to those I meet, and worry that I will be judged [...]

By | 2018-06-20T15:36:17+00:00 June 20th, 2018|NAMI Blog, Personal Stories|0 Comments